Yesterday was a lovely day…for me. I’m an hopeless optimist so even when things don’t go my way, somehow I know it was important I experience it.
How do I know this?
I dont know per se. It’s just a feeling.
Okay, that was a lie. It has nothing to do with feelings. It has more to do with truth. You remember the parable of those two guys who built their homes on the sandy ground and on the solid ground and then, when the waves came, the house built on the sandy ground was swept away. That sandy ground is an allegory for our emotions/feelings. No matter the kind of structure built on it, it all washes away when trials and temptation (water) comes.
So, no. It’s not a feeling. It’s trust. It is putting my trust on God’s word.
Basically I was pursuing a plan to move me to “the next level”. I trusted that God had opened a door for me. I was excited. I was like, ‘At long last!’. Normally, I put in my best effort to make sure the plan comes to pass. Happiness and thanksgiving was the order of those few days. I really thought God had done it. Then yesterday happened.
Two days ago, I had the urge that I might be in scammers territory. That thought slipped in from nowhere. I guess the Holy Spirit decided to let me on it, to save me money or something else, I don’t know.
Have you ever felt so disappointed over the outcome of a planned event? I have. Years ago, it happened and it was bad. You know, I have always had God but the difference between the knowledge I have of Him then and now is overwhelmingly clear. Then, I was worried that something which would have given me the temporary human feeling of progress was not coming forth. So I prayed, shouted, grumbled, talked, reasoned, promised, etc.
Yesterday however, when I realized I was dealing with scammers, I was simply a little amused and very grateful (that I had not spent too much).
These feelings I had was amazing to me. The reason was, I had no sorts negative feelings going on within me. I had used alot of energy working on them. I had really thought God had made a way. So, usually, what I do at this point is to question everything:
Is God really speaking to me?
Am I headed the right direction?
Then, during the period of my little amusement the Holy Spirit showed me a mental picture of who I used to be and who I am now. You want to know the difference?
It’s God’s Word.
His sweet beautiful word had become a strong tower for me. They were not just mere words. They were God’s word for me! O the difference.
I knew God’s heart for me.
I knew I am perfectly safe in His arms.
I knew everything is going perfectly, according to His plan.
I knew that I am His Son, and He is the Father.
I knew that as a Father who loves me more than I’ll know, He is working to give just the best.
I knew all this. It wasn’t just head knowledge. It is very real to me so much that I would rather die than accept anything else as truth. My feelings was unnecessary to define truth for me so I just not paid attention to them just because I knew I wouldn’t find truth there.
Do you feel the same way? Walking by faith, not by sight? Believe me, there is no other way to find peace and experience God’s love.
And it all begins when you meditate on His word.